Serenity Prayer--Thursday, June 2

God grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change;

• Newborns don't sleep through the night.  No matter how tired I am at 3:00 in the morning, I chose to have a child and it's my responsibility to feed him.
• As much as I would love to know, I have absolute no say in whether or not our next baby will be a girl.
• My hips are not going to shrink.
• Jackson will never have the pleasure of meeting my parents (on Earth). 

courage to change the things I can;

• Over time, I can change my weight and strength.  I can choose to eat better and exercise or I can choose to binge on sweets and sit on my ass.  I have control over this.
• There are certain efforts I can make to increase my frozen milk stash.  #1--Pump more!  Time to suck it up.  (pun intended)
• I can make an effort to socialize with other moms and make new friends with similar lifestyles.  I joined CharlotteMommies weeks ago but have been too afraid to go to any meetups.

and wisdom to know the difference.

• Can I change Jackson's feeding schedule?  Does he need to eat 3 times in the middle of the night? 
• Will my wedding ring every fit again?  Can I lose weight in my fingers or do I just have to get it resized?
• Is Jesse's career in his hands or only God's?  Should he stay home or go to work?
• Can I change my career status with National Boards next year?  Is it worth it? 

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I did not have enough patience to be a mother last night, as Jackson was awake every hour and I was physically drained.  After finally realizing he was never going to go back to sleep, I showered, dressed, and changed him at 7 a.m.  I put him on his tummy while I toasted my bagel and this is how I found him two minutes later.  Go figure...