Wednesday, June 11, 2014

It Is Finished

Okay, okay...I know I'm not Jesus. But I certainly bowed my head and exhaled this afternoon when I resigned from teaching. I may or may not have sobbed hysterically multiple times throughout the day.

I know resigning was the right thing to do.
I know we can't afford daycare expenses for four children.
I know I don't trust anyone else to come in my home and raise my children.
I know I am not only capable, but also enjoy providing fun, educational opportunities for my children.

But...

I know how much I love being a classroom teacher.
I know how hard I worked to earn my master's degree and National Boards.
I know how monotonous being a stay at home mother is.
I know that life will only get harder with three toddlers and a preschooler.

I will always have a preconceived notion that stay at home moms are lazy. They lack the education, drive, and work-ethic to get a real job. They watch soap operas all day and demand their drinks be refilled with a shake of their glass.

I am not and will not be that kind of mother.
I want so much more for myself and for my children.
I want to give all of myself to my children while they need me most.
I want to be the one to watch each new milestone with pride.

But...

That doesn't mean that today wasn't a difficult day.

4 comments:

  1. I can't even imagine how hard today was for you, and it probably won't help a thing by me telling you how proud I am of you for the decision you made. Believe it or not you were made to be a mommie.....

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  2. Hey, friend. (Did you know I read your blog? I do!) Sorry it was a rough day. Whichever kids you spend your days with are lucky to have you - your own right now, and your students once you get back in the classroom. Love and prayers. xoxo

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  3. Hi Mrs Robinson,
    It's Christina Grooms you taught my son Icenous (Ike) and then Leon the final year of the original Irwin IB. I have been reading your blog for awhile and today made me sad. I know it was hard to do what you did. However there are already so many children you have helped. Ike was headed for deliquency , you heard the stories. Lol. I can laugh now because something you did for my son that year turned it all around. I thank you in my mind every report card. You helped him figure it out. He is now taking Honors classes at Phillip O Berry. You did for him academically what no previous teacher could do. So for that chin up and keep that sucess story in your pocket. Thank you thank you and I will keep reading. Also Ike and Leon were so excited to hear about the triplets.

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    1. Mrs. Grooms, I cannot tell you how happy this made me. You know Ike was my baby. You tell him I am so proud of him and I will always be one of his biggest cheerleaders. And I hope Leon doesn't get away with too much with those gorgeous dimples. You've been blessed with some amazing boys! I don't know how you stumbled upon this blog, but thank you so much for sharing such encouragement.

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