Balancing Act

Last night I discovered a Snapfish deal I couldn't pass up-buy one photo book, get two free.  The only problem was that it expired at midnight (pacific time) last night.  I wanted to make a Mommy & Me book, Daddy & Me book, and a Grandparents & Me book.  Since I use Shutterfly instead of Snapfish I had to upload 100 photos and familiarize myself with their software.  I was exhausted by 1 a.m. and ended up only making a Mommy & Me book and a Daddy & Me book that also included pictures of Jan and Jeff.  

After not falling asleep until 2 a.m., I slept in until 10:30!  I missed Zumba again and elected not to work out today.  I need to be more cautious about eating enough because I have noticed an increase in headaches and grouchiness and a decrease in energy and milk supply.  (I was freezing 10 oz of milk a day but am now down to 5 oz every other day!)  I can't seem to figure out how to eat healthy and breastfeed at the same time.

Our pest control guy, Jose, came to spray the perimeters today.  (This is done quarterly.)  He was telling Jesse and I that his ten year old son asked him not to kiss him in public anymore.  He said that from the minute a child is born, he is learning how to be independent from his parents.  It's bittersweet to think that every day Jackson is learning so that he won't have to rely on us. 

Jackson was not acting like himself today.  I'm not sure if he was constipated or learning a new sound but he grunted for hours.  (Yes, hours!)  He used the bathroom plenty but he seemed to still be straining.  Jackson was also easily tired and fussy more than usual. 

We did have some nice family time playing upstairs.  Cowbell and Jackson did a duet on the piano.

Then Jesse and I took turns laying down with Jackson sitting up on our stomachs.  Jack is so easily amused he makes me feel like I'm a comedian.  We entertained him with silly sounds, kisses, and tickling.

I feel like I'm in a bit of a funk.  Jesse and I have spent nearly every hour together for the past month.  I didn't realize how much I missed going out alone until this week.  I went to dinner with my former teammates on Monday, then volunteered at Ronald McDonald house with some ladies from my teacher sorority last night.  Today I've been irritable and bored.  I am just itching to get back to work now that all the stores' shelves are stocked with back-to-school items and my inbox is being flooded with pacing guides and schedules.  As much as I love my family, it's time to start preparing for my upcoming balancing act as a working mom.